August

Another week has passed and thank god its over. My leave finally ended last week.Did a shit lots of stuff,went out everyday. Went to jb on sunday, kind of a last min thingy and i can say it was quite fun..quite a number of us compared to how we usually go. Stayed at sam's place from sun-tue doing god knows what, sleeping playing xbox cooking dinner watching tv..all kinds of stuff..August has been quite ok so far, manage to like get back to work and start earning some extra cash. although i dont really like the atmosphere im working in. I cant be choosy rite. so ill just live with what ive got. Oh and yeah although more money means spending more. I think ill start to save some. Ive yet to buy new clothes of any kind. Actually i dont think i bought a single shirt or jeans this year. I need a new pair of jeans. A new wallet. A new phone, mine is really screwed up, turns off by itself. A new belt. And a whole new set of shirts or t-shirts. I think ive got to start working more. Even if it means work then camp then work then camp then work. At least ill get tired and a good distraction from whatever is on my mind nowdays. Havent really uploaded any new pics from all the various outings we had, so i think i shall do it now..since i cant sleep and im quite free

I MISS YOU!!

Brandon & Christian. Why? You're gone back home after 3mnths here and although you will be back after 3mnths, Im starting to miss you already. The both of you brighten up my days and made them so fun and joyable with all your nonsense. Brandon i miss your cute little crazy ways and whenever i ask u to the "shaun face" how you would do it and smile at me. And all the mishief we would be up to. Christian i always disturb you but i know that you love me..Because you always ask for me to come instead of bryan and your face lights up whenever you see me. Now i have to go swimming all by myself..haha I still cant 4get how i taught brandon how to swim in the deep pool and how we played hide and seek and had our diving competition..haha..Those were one of the many fun days. Its a pity you wont be back for my bday. Its alrite..ill celebrate with you when your here.. I havent miss someone so much for a damn long time..You kids make me so happy and so sad..ahah..Come back soon!!

Grandmummy's Birthday!

Celebrated grandma's bday on satday. It was a suprise party where all here friends and family members were there. She was really in shock when she walked into the hotel and saw everyone there and heard them singing. I think she really enjoyed herslf and was quite happy that the people she wanted to see were there. At the party most of the aunty's were asking why i painted my finger nails and how come now ive put on so much weight or rather how come now im so fat. Was kind of a tiring day. After making sure that everything for my grams bday was ok and once we were done with the party went for mass, because my mum kind of knows that i dont go every sunday.Headed down to my aunts place for dinner and just a little chit chat because they were leaving today. I left their house early and met Sam at her place before heading down to mos to meet the rest. Had quite an ok time there. Oh Nicole cried Candice cried Sam got angry Shawn was high and i was damn tired. Reached home eventually at 630 and called it a day

Happy National Da

Same thing we did last year on this day, played soccer in church. Thats when i made up all the new rules. It was good today had fun, Played pretty well. Cant believe that i actually played quite well with the hernia that bad. Played for 3hrs and went down to holland v to eat the x.o fish head bee hoon soup. Shane Sam Shawn Nicole Nabeel and I were there having dinner. Its quite good. After which went for ice cream where liwen deon daphne and berg joined us.And berg commented on how fat ive become. Idiot but it was true lah. I am fat.Had nothing to do so slacked there till i eventually suggested to go watch a movie but when we reach town there wasnt any..so i couldnt be bothered and left with liwen. Finally home early haha..my mum shuld be happy..Got wake up tmr and follow liwenn shopping..Haiz..and ive got some errands to run

You Know Who You Are..

Its been quite a while since we spoke, just wondering how your doing. I know that your happy and doing well could tell from the last time that i saw you. Havent really heard from you or seen you around. Should be doing the usual sporty stuff.Hope all is well for you at home. And im sure work is definetly good. Your birthday is coming soon and knowing you theres bound to be a celebration. You love to party. Oh well was just wondering how you've been doind and if your doing well im happy for you. Hope to see or talk to you some time soon. Stay healthy!!

Routine Stuff

Past week was kind of busy, stayed in camp the whole week. Booked out a few times to go home and get stuff and to also go for hong's bday. He seemed to be happy. Celebrated his bday yest with eventually me getting high, this because everyone was missing and somewhere else so i drank with some new friends i made, quite nice pple. Eventually was so high that i didnt eat a thing at supper, that worked well for my diet. Seeing as i cut down alot on my food and keep exercising. Hernia still fucked up as usual hurts but oh well no choice, just got to live with it. Caught up with a few pple i havent seen for a while.And hung out with alot more who i usually hang out with. Been sick the whole week, flu cough and fever. still yet to recover. Hopefully soon. Will be free the next 2 weeks so anyone who is free just give me a call.

Tiring Weekend

The weekend was rather tiring, went for coffee at the starbucks at one fullerton which had quite a nice ambience and was there till say it closed, after which we headed to newton to eat and drank abit with Beng and Gab. Shawn came down when every1 was leaving so i stayed with him till 6am. Eventually instead of going home went over to Raymonds place to play mahjong and slept for awhile only reached home at1pm satday aftnoon. Slept the whole day till dinner.Went over to meet brandon and christian for dinner and walked them back to the apartment aftr that. Uncle Maurizio wanted to have a beer so i had a few drinks with him before i eventually left to meet sam and candice for coffee in town and then cuscaden to meet the rest of them.Newton again aftr that and then shawns place. Since we had a game again.
As usual i got a red card again. It happens every season but this time i culdnt control myself and started shouting vulgarities. My temper is getting quite bad.Actually it always has been bad. Thankfully enough we won 3-2. Shin Kwan was to hung over to play.We would of won anyway.. Went for mass and aftr that got the stuff for the hamster and beautified my room. Its finally clean once again have more to write but ill go shower 1st..haha ;)

Poor MiMi!

Mimi has sadly passed away. After 1 week and 3days with me it passed away by repeatedly falling down and refusing to eat.I actually felt something when i found out she died. So i'm doing my best to keep Jasper alive for as long as possible. So last week we went to mos on wed when the initial plan was to go to butter. But like how Joshua is baned from zouk, Lawlor is baned from Butter. So we ended up at mos even though we didnt really like the place. Since Kenneth Vance and a few of them were at Butter they kept insisting that i come down because i seldom hang out with them anymore and they wanted me to go and drink as usual. Sam Candice and Vanessa followed me down to Butter, we took a taxi because all were too lazy to walk plus spoilt sammi was wearing heels. Went there and drink quite a bit the guys were quite high so it didnt matter how long i stayed. Stayed for an hr and then headed back to mos where it was quite fun and had a good night. Only for the latter part when vanessa got into some shit. Hong and i took the cab and headed back home while i made my way to camp. I was damn fucking tired and prbly slept the whole day not doing my job well. Since i didnt really want to go and meet people and go out, i stayed in and only came out on friday instead of thursday..

Jasper & Mimi

IVE GOT HAMSTERS.. Finally after i think like 1 and a half years, ive got hamsters again.I ve got 2. After picking Josh up from the airport, Sam Shawn and i were thinking of names for the hamsters when i remembered Jasper & Mimi from PCK..haha. but i also contemplated on like the names Nibbles and Starlight. Haha. My little cousins are in love with them they enjoy playing every single moment wth them. I'm thining of like getting a big cage where they can run around and do their exercise and stuff. If not the small one its like db for them man cant do nothing. Maybe ill go check out some cages over the weekend at vivo or god knows where, and clean my room and like re arrabge so i can let the hamsters out of the cage sometimes. Oh and i think i need another hamster ball.1 isnt enuf

Bom Bom Fatty

I have put on weight and its quite alot. Lots of people have been telling me that recently. Friends whom i havent seen for long when they see me they are like " eh what happen sia" ell of a lot. Even my officers in camp are telling me that. My aunts keep telling me to do something bout my weight and keep reminding me. And yes i am fat now. My tummy is bigger everything is bigger. Maybe its becoz of all the late nights and the irregular sleeping hours. Im not lazy, its just that i dont have that much time to exercise and i ran out of painkillers. Its time to lose weight. Actually it was time long time ago. My healthy lifestyle has stopped. No more are the days of blading and cycling. Maybe its becoz not every1 wants to do that..and kind of hard to find a companion that enjoys that. I dont eat that much. I watch what i eat. But its true that sometimes i couldnt care less. I just do as i please and dont bother much abt appearance now days. Sub consiously i dont bother about my weight but when u think abt it or look at me, i am quite big size. Hopefully i can start on my mission to lose weight and keep to that routine. I'll try my best to do so. Not a very nice thing to hear when people keep telling you that your fat or that you need to lose weight.

The Problem Child!

Yes! im referring to me. Thats me, ive always been the problem child and i will always be the problem child. As if work is not fucked up enough, i got kicked out of the house again. Nothing new eh, since it happen like so many times already. Ive really lost count. Somehow or another whatever i do ill make my parents angry or whatever i do, i cant please them. I got kicked out and this time round was quite bad. My dad was damn angry i kinda kept quiet after he went all ballistic. I stayed over at my grandma's place for 1 day then i came home got my passport and left for jb.

Everything went well in jb until we were returning to singapore. According to the customs they said i didnt declare ciggs so they fined me 200 bucks man and to keep the ciggs i had to pay7.65 more. Its shit man i did declare and u know whats the best part, i bought the ciggs for Sam and Candice to share. Maybe its true that the nice guy always dies first. Of coz i did quarell with the customs before paying. I think i was in the room for abt half an hr and poor ryann was waitg for me. haha.Back in singapore i complained and bitched and made noise like the whole day..even during dinner.Went over to sam's place after that played with Starfish till god knows what time,was catching up on the gossip as well. Eventually came home on friday morning.

Went to acid bar on friday for Faith because she's leaving for aussie to study going there to meet Patrick. Acid was fun finally most of the pple came down and we managed to enjoy ourselves. Made Faith sing on stage, she has quite a nice voice. Headed to lucky plaza macs after that for supper. Everyone left and i stayed with jill because she didnt want to go home. So we decided to watch Transformers at like4am but we missed the show by ten mins. Too bad Jill haha another time. Satday was suppose to work but didnt go, because i actually hate all the staff working there and i dont click with them. Cant tell that they actually dont like me. So i think im going to quit soon if they dont change me to their inside outlet. No point working with people who is going to pick on you 24/7 its just like being a maid or servant. Woke up and met Hong at my place and went to airport to see Faith and Steph off. After which we headed down to MOS and was quite a fun nite.

I finally was able to wake up and go for mass. After 1 month i finally gone for mass. But i felt as if it was as good as me not going seeing as i didnt really like put that much heart into it. Went to vivo with my aunt and uncle and they acme to the conclusion that im always going out because im lonely. Dont know if thats true anot but oh well, everyone has their on way of thinking about stuff. Jill and Hong said the day before that i looked very bothered by stuff. But thankfully enough there isnt anything to bother me. Was talking to kelly online and i told her that i'm not happy.She wanted to try and cheer me up..haha but the ting is im not sad aswell. its like im just in between living a mononotus life. Made plans with Sammi to start our diet plan. It commences tmr.haha we;re going jogging with starfish and then head down to the airport to pick our EMO NEMO friend Joshua up..

Till the next time, i will always be the same broke problem child

I.m Back

so i havent been updatin my space for a while so i shuld have lots to talk about.

MONDAY:
Oh well last monday i manage to come out of camp, met nicole at cck and took a cab dwn to town to meet the rest of the girls to just bum around since, there wasnt anyone left.(most of them on holidays) went over to balcony for a few drinks, yes u must be thinking drinks on monday but it wasnt much just like maybe 2 glasses. chilled there till everyone left except sam and i. Sam was kind enough to accompany me till 6am so that there's no midnite charge and i can go to camp. Manage to eat some good bak kut teh, havent had it for a long long time. This is the 1st time i actually ate the meat, its not to bad quit chewy. After that shared cab with sam, sent her back before heading to camp its actually quite near. THANKS SAMMI for staying out and keeping me company. I stay with you next time, i show you good time :) haha.

TUESDAY:
Was so tired after the nite before, fell asleep when suppose to be on duty in camp, haha and got screwed for it. I deserve it lah its my fault anyways. Left camp and headed down to town to meet them again.After which jill came to met us when the rest left. Was left with liwen jill and i. liwen left so i was with jill for a bit to catch up on the gossip before we parted..haha

Tiring week.

It was one hell of a tiring week. Had to stay in camp from tue-sat but of coz knowing me, i manage to come out but still go back to camp everyday. Wednsday was out for candice's bday and it was one fun night, although we didnt see her that much. haha. "Su" made me drink a graveyard which tasted like shit, and i swear im never going to drink that again. Its the worst shit ever man, sometimes i dont know how these pple come up with all this weird drinks. Thurs went over to cuscaden for dinner coz shane was working so all went to keep him company, was an early night. haha. Friday went to mos after booking out of camp late. Fought with my camp officer then left. Came home then fought with everyone before leaving for mos where josh and mike had the show. It was damn fucking packed man. didnt enjoy myself. Sat was better. woke up at god knows what time, then got changed and ready to go out to zouk(cash money). It was good shit man. I enjoyed myself to the max. haha. Didnt care abt others who were drunk or high or quarelling. Ended up at spize where i saw the rest of the pple who were dispersed all over diffrent places. Woke up and went to church for soccer where i couldnt last the pace because of last night. Didnt go for mass for 3 weeks kind of ermm bad lah. Parents making noise and all. Aiyah but then again its my mistake. Hopefully next week i can make it for mass. Going to arab st now to meet the rest because pat's leaving for australia to study on wed.so yeah. gtg.

Quotes

Its 350 am and i cant sleep so im going to blog few quotes that i like.

Friendship.

When the character of a man is not clear to you, look at his friends.

Sometimes the measure of friendship isn't your ability to not harm but your capacity to forgive the things done to you and ask forgiveness for your own mistakes.

When someone allows you to bear his burdens, you have found deep friendship.

We secure our friends not by accepting favours buy by doing them.

I've learned that all a person has in life is family and friends. If you lose those, you have nothing,
so friends are to be treausred more than anything else in the world.

Boredom.

The cure for boredom is curiosity. There is no cure for curiosity.

Life.

The first step to getting the things that you want out of life is this. Decide what you want.

Life is pleasant. Death is peaceful. It's the transition that's troublesome.

We make a living by what we get, We make a life by what we give.

Life is just a mirror, and what you see out there, you must first see inside of you

Lies.

Liars when they speak the truth are not believed

Love.

Love is the triumph of imagination over intelligence.

There is no remedy for love but to love more

Age does not protect you from love. But love, to some extent, protects you from age.

To be brave is to love someone unconditionally, without expecting anything in return. To just give. That takes courage, because we don't want to fall on our faces or leave ourselves open to hurt.

Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all.

The first duty of love is to listen.

Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired.

Love all, trust a few. Do wrong to none.

Happiness.

Cherish all happy moments: they make a fine cushion for old age.

In order for people to be happy, sometimes they have to take risks. It's true these risks can put the in danger of being hurt.

Education

It seems like everyone is like starting to study or going overseas to study which makes me start to wonder, what am i going to do? its been quite a long while and i have totally lost intrest in everything. Have no idea what the hell im going to do after im done with army.Kind of scary though im 21yrs old and ive got no education at all no diploma, no "O" levels, no nothing. I thought about becoming a chef, but i dont have the passion to cook anymore. Then a childrens counsellor, but not that patient nowdays. There was ideas of becoming an events organiser but still im not that good at any of these stuff. I'm scared shitless for my future. Im worried. But ive got no answer or no soloution to any of these things. And my biggest mistake is that i dont speak it out. I dont talk about these stuff to people. Not to parents because i know ill feel like shit and basically because we just dont talk. Many things i like to do bt i think its time to get my priorities straighten out. Hopefully ill come to think of what id like to do when the time comes. And lets hope its not to late

A Good Week

This week was good.Fruitful infact. And im glad i maximised myself though it was tiring. Came out on tuesday from camp and went over to Josh's place where we had abit too much to drunk and as usual there wasa drama. good to know that somethings were able to be straightened out. Wed was at Shane's house watching dvds. We watched Dodgeball an American Wedding after which we all went home and got ready to go to the beach on thursday morning with STARFISH(thats sam's dog by the way). haha I want to bring the dog home for one week can? Please Sam. Ill do anything..haha. Brought my cousins out with them after that and as usual Shane was the bad influence. Went to camp late on friday man. thank god nothing happened. Came out late and ermm watched dvds at Shawns place this time round afterwhich we went to watch the sunrise. I came homed changed and went to play soccer with my cousins straight away and then i went swimming with them aswell. Finally i was too tired and K.Oed. Went Mos with the whole gang yest and manage to have quit a bit of fun. And as usual its back to camp tmr.But only for 2 days so it aint so bad. Was a good week, didnt spend much money, manage to do quite abit of exercise and ermm still have lots of fun.

My Weekend

Finally went hiking on sat morning after so long. It was tiring waking up after doing research on the com and watching the late night movie, but it was well worth it. Manage to get some morning breeze and good work out. Not many people believed when i said i went because 1st of all i went alone lah. And secondly, who would actually wake up and go do this stuff. After that came home and slept and went to newton for Kok Beng's birthday before heading down to MOS where we had a quite fun night altogether. Been awhile since i had that much of fun. Came home eventually at 6am and played with my couzzies till it was time to go 4 mass. Wasnt paying attention during mass it was like just go and get it over with (sad to say) maybe because i was too tired. Played soccer and maybe i think i overexerted myself because the hernia hurt badky again. Oh well came back and entertained the young ones again before going down to arab st to meet the rest to plan our next few weeks of outings. Seems quite fun, hopefully it happens.

The Aftermath

I think im allergic to something. And i think that its dogs. I say this because, the other night i stayed over at Nicole Mok's place and was playing with her dog, and she was like lying on me and jumping all over. Then yest, i was over at Sam and Candice's place and the same thing, and ive got a bad flu now. It happened the day after i was at Nicole's place aswell.

My nose is bad. Its been non stop sneezing since i left their place earlier this morning, and my eyes hurt badly.I can barely open my eyes, but thank god for eye drops. haha. Im sick once again, and this time i think there is something internal which ive got to check. I drank water this morning and my throat and abdomen hurt real bad. It was like sharp poking pain and i couldnt breath for that short moment. At first i thought it was a one of thingy but it happened again just now. After watching Shrek3, i drank abit of Deon's coke and it was the same feeling. If it continues to happen, i think ive got to go and get it checked. Seems quite serious, when i press y tummy it hurts aswell.

I think movie theaters arent for me. Id rather watch the dvd at home. I feel really uncomfortable because the seats are like so close to one another and you cant do as you please. You've got to be wary about not blocking someone or spoiling the movie for them. I watched 2 shows recently. Pirates of the Caribbean and Shrek3. Both of which i didnt watch the 1st two. I found Pirates quite draggy and i slept like half way in the show. The 1st time ive ever fallen asleep in a cinema. Shrek was OK but nothing fantastic. Didnt really like make me laugh as much as i expected. Ive seen better shows. I'm still waiting for my dvds to arrive. Its alot man like 20, this time round i bought the most and it hasnt come. Hopefully it comes within the next week, ive watched all my shows i need to watch and im getting bored.
Games where me out aswell. Get tired of playing the same thing over and over again. I need to get new games and new dvds.

Yes! Ive put on weight, and i think its quite alot. Many people have been telling me the same thing, maybe its time to exercise even though the hernia is going to hurt. I cant just sit around and do nothing. Id rather go through the pain and look acceptable. So tmr ive actually decided to go hiking, but no one is free. I'm going alone. I cant keep waiting for people. If not ill never get things done. From now on every satday morning im going to do at least some form of exercise and i somewhat have it all planned out. If so happens i cant make it on a saturday ill push it to sunday. And by hook or by crook ill have it done. I enjoy doing outdoor sports and i get to lose weight, so why not. Going it alone is not a problem. Done it so manytimes before, but of course with company it will be more fun. gotta go catch some sleep, looking forward to tmr.

A Good Day.

So the tournament that i organised went well. It was good to see that many of the teams turned up and that most of them were actually happy with the tournament. Besides the refreeing mishaps and (Key) dont know if thats how you spell his name breaking his elbow, everything went smoothly. Most of the teams were kind of happy that when they arrived they saw many like friends playing in diffrent teams and it became quite competitive in a friendly kind of way. My team didnt go to far and that was a good thing. Because i had to stick to the organising and refreeing. The two teams that eventually reached the finals were those that i thought would stand a chance of winning. They were the two best teams and deserve to be there.

After the tournament, finally had something to eat and a few of us went to candice's place. They were all playing mahjong while i kept myself entertained by playing with their dog Starfish. Haha. Its quite a cute dog though. Small and innocent. Id love to borrow her for a few days,haha but i doubt candice will ever let me take her out unless it was for a walk. O well. My mum kept calling and as usual made noise because im not at home again. She keeps complaining that im out too often and keep coming back when the sun is up. Which is something she really doesnt like, looks like ive got to start cutting down on my outings.

Little Ones.

Been rather busy with the past few days, with work and research and my cousins. Yes!! my cousins have finally arrived from America. Its been a long wait and its well worth it. I picked them up at the airport last week and they've been staying in my house eversince. Its been fun having them around, just doing nothing,playing games, going out and seeing them get up with all their mischief and nonsense.They're always smiling and laughing. So innocent and i can guarantee any of you that you'll enjoy being with them the moment you see them. Of course, they are much bigger from the last time i saw them, but its still a bundle of joy having them around. The good news is that they mite be staying here for about 3 years, this because my uncle mite be placed to work here and that could be for around that period of time.

Somehow i know im not my old self when it comes to kids. Its just diffrent. When i was working in the American Club, everytime kids came in the games area no matter who ill be just happy to see them. And no matter what they did ive always have the patience to keep my cool and not get angry. Now, i get irritated and somewhat moody when its around them. I still do go out of my way to get for them stuff and give them surprises and bring them out. But its diffrent. Sad but diffrent. My aunt who came down, said that i always look lost or that somethings bothering me, she did mention that her husband said the same when he was down here a few times earlier in the year. I dont feel that way. But then again its people who notice you that you should listen too. Anyways it just good that their here for now and that they will be here for a lot longer. Kind of nice having them around. They make me happy at times.