DIE!!!

I hate my life,i hate the world, i hate what ive become, i hate myself , i hate everything that lives and everyone that is happy. Why be happy when in the end your bound to be angry or sad? i hate this feeling inside me, i really cant take it anymore, i try my best to have other good distractions but no matter what it always comes down to this.This f**ked up feeling. Im so angry and sad at the same time, i need to take out my anger on something.Its time to get a punching bag, i realised that punching stuff like walls and doors will cause you to hurt your hand and cause it to have scars. AARGHHHH!!! No education, No money, No love, No life. Thats me No Life. Everyone seems to be so f**king happy but thats all lies. I do so much good, over the years ive done so much good for people and for what? what did i get in return nothing. Ive always done stuff with no expectations, but getting nothing in return is f**king stupid. Everything good that has been given to me has been taken away before i can enjoy it..why give it to me then? Its always the nice people that get treated like shit and gets nothing whereas all the bad ones gain everything and get everything that they want. Its simple being nice gets you nowhere. Ive learn to realise that. So dont blame me if im not nice and i start to act like an asshole. This because ive come to realise that the asshole are the one who gets everything. Its time i be one of those Assholes

You Know Who You Are...

Havent talked to you for quite some time now, wondering whats been going on in your life. You seem to be very happy with your life and with whatever happenings that there has been in your life. Good for you. Miss hanging out and just chatting like before, guess your busy with what you do, barely see you or hear from you. Have not forgotten about you dont worry :) You seem to be living a good life now, something you deserve. Stay happy and keep smiling like you always do. Hopefully will hear from you soon. Continue enjoying your life. ;)

Money!!!

Money, is something that lets people have great happiness and something that allows people to have alot of grief. I say this because with money you can have everything you've ever wanted and so much more. You can have all that you wanted, fancy clothes, big house, nice cars, lots of friends, eat lavishly, live luxuroiusly, and do so much more. Many people say that with money u cant buy happiness, well i think that is wrong.With money you can buy happiness this because, with money you can get anything you want to make you happy. Money is the way to peoples heart.Sad but true. You can love someone with all your heart and soul but end of the day if that person doesn't have enough money it wont last. Thats the sad fact. About 70% of the population in the world are materialistic. The 30% that arent are those in the 3rd world countries who know the true meanings of like and love and family. Maybe people need to live in a place where they've got nothing to appreciate what they have now. Till then i will leave by making it short and simple. My main goal now is to make money. So dont blame me if i dont want to spend on stuff that isnt a necessity. I'm willing to earn the hard cash to make my future a lavish one.

Just Another Lonely Sunday

Sunday's use to be of so much joy and fun for me, nowdays its a total diffrent story. My sundays are usually boring and rather lonely. I spent the nearly the whole sunday in my room doing nothing.Wake up walk around the house seeing as there's nothing to do, ill go back into my room and lay around till i eventually get bored. Mind you there isnt any tv or computer in my room.The radio isnt working either. So all i do is lie down and day dream. Its time i changed my room concept. Waiting to clear stuff out, get rid of the bed and shelfs and cupboards and make it more cozy for me. Bring a small tv and dvd player and lots more stuff.This way ill enjoy staying in my room more often. I use to go for breakfeast and soccer and alot more stuff on sunday. Nowdays kind of hard, not that many people i know who have the same intrest as me. Will be on the look out for those with the same intrest. Have monday - wednesday off not really sure what ill do though. Will see when it comes.

January

January is finally over. Actually it was quite fast how it passed by. Lets take a look back at how the month went.

The 1st day of the year didnt really start on a good note for me, things werent how i expected, like i say always expect the unexpected and unexpect the expected. From there things were as per normal, my daily life was just normal monotonous and routine, nothing exciting. Late January had to go for a storeman course which wasnt that bad, got to met new people who were quite fun although i dont keep contact with them i enjoyed myself. Some chanegd that i have yet to adjust to but oh well ill adjust to them soon. Change always happens its how u welcome it. For me i would say overall January was an average month nothing new and nothing exciting, monotonous and kind of boring at times

Once again to all the January Babies, Happy Birthday. Hope u guys enjoyed your birthdays.
Nicole,Nabeel,Shane,Vernon and Perry - The January Babies

Love Takes Time

I had it allBut I let it slip away
Couldn't see that I treated you wrong
Now I wander around
Feeling down and cold
Trying to believe that you're gone

Love takes time
To heal when you're hurting so much
Couldn't see that I was blind
To let you go
I can't escape the pain
Inside
Love takes time
I don't wanna be here alone

Losing my mind
From this hollow in my heart
Suddenly I'm so incomplete
Lord I'm needing you now
Tell me how to stop the rain
Tears are falling down endlessly
Love takes time

Love takes time
To heal when you're hurting so much
Couldn't see that I was blind
To let you go
I can't escape the pain
Inside
Love takes time
I don't wanna be here alone


I don't wanna be here alone
You might say that it's over
You might say that you don't care
You might say you don't miss meYou don't need me
But I know that you do and I feel that you do

Fat F**K

Thats me. Im fat and i keep putting on weight, i dont know how. I barely eat i dont drink soft drinks, i dont snack or munch i dont eat that much fried food or fast food. I dont eat rice because i dislike it. Im already tired of eating the stuff that i like. I have one meal a day thats it and no snacks inbetween. Sometimes two at the most. But both aint heavy meals. Ive started exercising regularly. But with doing all this my tummy still becomes bigger. I dont understand. Maybe im doing something wrong that i have no idea. Oh well will just go back to the good old days where i dont eat that much..although its the same..ill try to eat alot less and healthier food. hopefully will losse weight within the next 1month.